PEBBLE. BRICK. TRUCK.
This is something I talk to people about regularly. The way the universe works is 'jump or be pushed'. I am sheepishly embarrassed to admit I have waited to be pushed far too often in my past, so I don't take that risk anymore. Because the push is always more brutal than a simple decision would've been.. ?
You get little 'pebbles' along the journey letting you know something is or isn't right for you. You get a prod in a certain direction from time to time, and that prod doesn't always seem rational.
Most people don't listen to the pebbles. They justify ignoring it by saying things like 'I don't know how I would monetize it.' Or 'it's not a smart decision for me right now.' Or 'I'll do it someday, maybe when I have more money or the kids are grown.'
So then you get a brick. There's relationship strain. Your health is suffering. You haven't slept through the night in months, maybe over a year. There's a restructure and you get a drop in pay. But still you choose the safe option of staying with what you know, because you've never listened to your intuition before and you don't realize that it's trying to move you towards everything you've ever wanted.
You struggle on amongst the bricks. Maybe for years. You feel so tired and worn out that your true joys have been reduced to Friday night drinks and other coping mechanisms that take the lid off the pot but don't do anything to the heat source, threatening to boil it over at any moment.
Wanna know what 'trucks' have looked like in my life?
I lost loving relationships.
I collapsed and went blind in a sales meeting.
I copped a 90min tirade from a subordinate in my corporate job that left me shaken and numb.
I was thrown into a wall by my drug-addicted boyfriend and had to leave the country to be safe.
And most recently? I got a tumour.
I never like to be morbid, but the truth is, we genuinely don't know how long we've got.
I suspect all of you have seen (and largely ignored) the pebbles. Many of you will have taken a few bricks.
Please step out of the way of the oncoming trucks.