Sometimes we say 'I HAVE to do this' or 'I HAVE to finish that..' as a way to pretend something is being imposed on us. This legitimizes rebellion and makes us feel like we're taking back control, when really we're just phucking ourselves over.
You don't HAVE to do squat. If you have a dream or a business or a family or a hobby or a passion you GET to work on / at / for it. You are lucky to have it, blessed to have found it and excited to be a part of it.
Stop with the 'put upon' language. You don't get to be a kickass legend and a victim at the same time. Choose the reality you want and run with it.